a lesson in pain.

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

- Jim Morrison, The Doors

I re-read the label j. Some of them anyway. It was a strange anesthesia. Reminds me of so much things i have forgotten. Gerald was right, sadly, maybe. I am stronger than i think i am. Strength not in the form which i have always perceived but in the form of something bigger and wiser than the entity that is myself.

Awareness is bittersweet. Almost ironic to learn, yet a hand nonetheless.